Haunting

Those eyes.

Those painfully blue eyes.

Why can't I forget them?

Why can't I push them away?

Is it because I love you?

Maybe, maybe not.

Is it because I hate you?

Maybe, maybe not.

Why I do I keep seeing your eyes?

Why do I keep hearing your voice in these dark nights?

Why I keep seeing your blood staining my hands?

Is it guilt that is driving me into remembering that night?

You chose that path yourself.

You screamed and I loved it.

I loved the pain I caused you.

I loved the blood that was pouring out of your body.

I killed you!

And I loved every moment of it.

Because even thought I loved you,

you were like everybody else.

Helpless and mortal.

The monster within me took advantage of your trust

“Why?” you asked.

And the answer is “Because”.

Because you loved me

and never left me.

Because you were happy

being beside me.

Because you wished

that it would last forever.

But nothing is forever.

I proved it by removing my mask.

Then why do I see you?

You stand there and smile.

I proved you wrong,

so why do you smile?

Why do you whisper that you love me?

I killed you and bather in your blood

but you smile anyway.

Why? What is it that you want?

“Join me!” You sau.

But how could I?

There is so much more blood to spill.

Why should I come to you?

Those eyes.

Those painfully blue eyes.

Why can't I forget them?

Is it because I still love you?