I Had Laid Amongst The Stars

Though it is winter here

The sun burns the bridge of my nose

And my skin turns red with heat

And even then, I feel a cold hand reach for me.

In its wake, it longs for me.

Nearly there, I fall before lifting

Myself off the ground, though time

Has found a better game, and the pains

Never seem far away.

The stares are clear and I feel them

As I walk down the lighted boardwalk,

But then I took your arm

And the dead no longer troubled me.

The green lights brightened my smile,

Yes I am smiling today,

Though the wind is humid, I smile,

My loneliness no longer troubling me.

I knew this happiness was not forever

And now at home, I feel the dead more than ever.

But I had felt peace with you,

I had felt loved,

And yes, I even felt fearless.

But now I am miles from your warmth,

The Christmas tree cannot brighten my smile,

For I cannot smile. Not here.

And the walks cannot ease the troubles

I had hidden from you behind the crinkle of my eyes.

I sit here wondering if you are thinking of me.

I sit here wondering, do you know how much it hurts?

To pretend I can let go of your strong and powerful hand

And return back to my reality, my normality.

I'd rather live in your anomaly.

When I feel alone,

And trust me, I always feel so very much alone,

I will remember my days with you,

And how with you

I had laid amongst the stars.