I’m sorry.
By Darla P

This one is about a little Chihuahua dog we had for a while who we couldn’t keep
because she and the other dogs were fighting.

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I’m so sorry girl
It’s like no one understands you
We’re mad at you
We scream at you as soon as you do something wrong
Every time it’ll be your fault
You only complicate things
Since you got here everything is messy
We have to send you back, we say

But have we thought of you?
Looked at it from your point of view
All your life you’ve been part of one family
And then someone just rip you away from them
From everything you’ve ever known
Now they don’t want you anymore
Do you wonder what you did wrong?
Why they don’t want you now

You get to this new place
And no one seems to like you there either
Do you think no one loves you anymore?
You don’t know anyone here
And it makes you nervous and scared
You’re trying to defend yourself against possible threats
Against all kinds of potential dangers
And it makes everyone mad
But you’re not mean
You don’t want to fight or hurt anyone
You just do what you have to do to cope

I’ve realized this now and feel extremely sorry for you
I shouldn’t care because you can’t stay here
But how do I not care when you’re looking at me with those big brown eyes
All watery, as if you’d been crying
How can I not love you when you’ve chosen me?
It’s me you come to for comfort or safety

You’re doing your best to be kind
But still you don’t know if this is where you belong now
Where is your home?
I really wish it could be here
If I got to choose I’d find a way to make it work
I’d want to promise, you’d always stay here with me
But I know it would be a promise I couldn’t keep

It hurts me to know that you once again have to go through this
But at another place
What if you won’t even like it there?
I just want to hold you and promise you a better life
But now I don’t know what’s gonna happen to you

Once we give you away
We’ll never see each others again
I will miss you, I hardy know you
but I know I will never forget the short time we got together
Will you miss me? No, you’ll forget
Maybe it’s for the best; I don’t want you to remember what you had here
What could have lasted for the rest of your life

If you don’t fit in here, maybe you will someplace else
And I know I can’t be selfish now
I have to think of you
I’ll do whatever it takes for you to be happy
Even if it means you won’t be one of my little girls anymore
If it means letting you go, I will

You just came into our lives
And I don’t want to say goodbye
I’ve already fallen in love with you
You’re so sweet and special you know
I’ll probably change my mind soon
But deep down I know letting you go is the only option

This is our goodbye
You won’t go tomorrow, or maybe not even this week
But it’s still a goodbye because now I know that the final farewell isn’t too far away
I hope you will never forget me
And I pray you’ll remember that I loved you, that I always will
I’m sorry girl, goodbye

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