1/17/08

Even as I sit here now

staring into the abyss

sometimes I wonder how

it ended up like this

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The lies and pain

and the walls of separation

drive me insane

all of the frustration

make me turn in desperation

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The darkness is closing in

I can feel it gaining on me

it's enough to make my head spin

please listen as I plea

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The anger inside is piling

makes me want to scream

standing here with my fake smiling

collecting tears, my eyes begin to gleam

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I'm so tired

I need to rest

why has so much pain transpired?

I've become so obsessed

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With the beauty I do not possess

with the perfection I can never achieve

this has caused me much undue stress

all I can do is sit and grieve

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If action is what I should take

watch me wither away

this pain is but an ache

to the skies that are ever grey

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I hunger for the pain

and to food I've yet to consume

this flawlessness I try to attain

in the end will build my tomb