A/N: something you can't understand til you've felt it...

Sunlight.
It streams in through the window, playing dappled spots upon the bed.
My heart is all aflutter.
I've never felt this way before. Sometimes I like it; sometimes I don't.
Sometimes I'm scared of the outcome.
I don't want it to end. But what if it does?
I don't want to enter this world I've always watched from the sidelines, this world I've dreamed of.
What if thinks don't work out?
I want to marry him.
I feel it deep inside my heart.
I barely know him.
Do I love him?
I don't think so. Sometimes it's hard to tell.
I wish I could have the answers.
But part of what I love is the mystery of not knowing.
I want someone to understand.
Sometimes I think everyone does; sometimes I think no one does.
What's going to happen to me?
Clouds.
They're moving over the sun, dimming the light to a bright white gray.
I'm so confused.