Well, guess this came as a spur, have you ever that feeling that some of your stories tell a lot about you, well ppl, you now get to see the inside of this writer's mind, just by reading this story, you see into a day of my life. She never came back, she was a countless number. I hope you enjoy this little clip into my life and plz if you must, review if not, then enjoy my other writings. To all my faithful reviewers of my stories, i don't know when i will be able to but i will try my best to fix my problems and get those stories up...check ya later,

i am out,

Wayne

He stands by and watches as she tells him that she cant take it any more, she doesn't get the vibe that he loves her...more that he likes her. She tells him life will go on.

From his experiances they do but then every girl he has dated has ended up hurting or betraying him. He never will find love, he seems to be unable to be with anyone, his life seems to be full of taking care of everyone else's problems yet when his problems come he can't fix them. Nor can he even get the girl he has loved for so long. He stands in the rain, watching her walk away from him, and getting in the cab.

He thinks of all the times they shared threw out their relationship, how happy they were for the longest time...She tries to call him and tell him that she is happy with her new lover, that he will find love. He sighs with the thought of what she has said.

"Yeah right, every time I get into a relationship, i put everything into them. I tried my best to not hurt the person but then when I turn around there they stand to tell me they haven't been faithful or they found someone else. It happens every time, every FUCKING time. Why can't they understand that my life is broken because of them, fractured and isn't going to be repaired...it cant be because when i finally gets somewhat repaired, someone else breaks it again, but worst."

She tries to tell him life is a losing game, that you cant win. Staring at her he notices that she is neither crying nor is she sad, and it hurt him even more to know that once again, this nice guy gets fucked over because he is either too nice or too sweet, or hell just too something. No girl that he has dated has given him a straight answer. He thought about sucide but in the end didn't do it because of his best friend. Who was shot down in a city while they were walking, he held his dying friend as he bled to death in his arms. He couldn't believe it, his best friend dead...he goes into a state of delusion.

The last words his friend said to him "live long and happy, see you in hell, bud" It was joke they always made when his friend was still alive. It seem so trival now, he wished his best friend was here to help him threw it.

He promised he would..but why is it so hard for him to continue on...he never understood, why it was so hard to live on when he seem to do it once in a while but yet in the back of his head, he knows it isn't going smoothly. The only reason why he was alive is because of alcohol and a job that kept his mind off the pain but when it became too much, he lost it. that year he try to kill himself ten times and and three out of the ten he was able to cut his heart rate to zero. but they brought him back.

Those people just don't understand that he wants to die he needs to die in order to end the pain.

"Love? whats that? is it that feeling you get when you look at someone and think, she is the one or is it that feeling when you hold that person that it feels perfect, natural...well i have felt that many a time but never have a felt it more strongly with her"

She completed me and yet we never actually touched. We exchange words of comfort and promises of something better. And yet she cant seem to see that he was right all along.

It seems like the nice guys lose again all because of the assholes. You have guys who just come out of know where and be a sweet guy and seem to care more then the nice guy. Physically impossible, but it seems so to the girl. He works his magic then when you fall for him, he becomes his real self...the asshole, and from the very beginning the nice guy been telling you that you shouldn't. But you take it as him just trying to get you back, but no a nice guy thinks of everyone else, not himself so that is why he gets fucked over! Every time the girl gets with the asshole, finds out what he is, and notices that the nice guy was right...then they dont wanna talk to the nice guy because they are afraid of him rubbing it in. But they dont understand is: the nice guy always looks out for everyone else, not just himself.

check ya later,

Wayne

I am out for now...Feb. 8th 2008 - Feb 10th 2008