“I care about you”

Your words well intentioned

Like poison dripping in my ear

Every syllable makes me question

Why you’re dating down;

Why you chase this wreck.

I don’t give a damn if you love me

Much less care what you think

Right now I don’t want rationality

Only to hate you for everything.

Because I’m pretty sure it’s over

It’s just a matter of when

I’m waiting for your kiss that says

“I’m sick of dealing with you

With your desperate ways

And with your constant insecurity.”

We both know that you’re wasting

Time and energy on a

Hopeless case like me

Always point blank refusing

To change her toxic ways.

I trust you, I need you

More than I probably should

And sometimes I wish that

Instead of happiness you

Gave me hatred just so

The eventual hurt of losing you

Would manifest into anger and

That I know how to deal with.

Yet you continue to be perfect,

Civil and affectionate to the

Most flawed creature you

Will ever find in your travels;

Letting her have you,

Sacrificing your sanity

TO her most frustrating manner.

And still, you whisper

Those intoxicating words

That take me higher,

Make me feel safer,

More addictive than,

Anything I’ve ever tried.

“I care about you.”

Well, I care about you too, baby,

Just not enough to change

And not enough to make this work.