I miss her

And I wish I could get her inebriated so she could acquire bad judgement and finally find me attractive

And I wish that I was someone that she'd like, even though I have no idea what the fuck that entails

I wish I could get cancer and die

Just kidding

But I definitely wish something sympathetic could happen to me, preferably something that ties into her rejecting me so that she wouldn't be able to reject me again

I wish that I could have some kind of major life changing surgery that alters my appearance in such a way as to be completely unrecognizable

And then I wish I could come back to school under a different name and a different voice and a different body and somehow get into all her classes and make her laugh and do all the things that I should have done in the first place

If it were any other person, they would have bagged it, they would have just nailed it

But no

I have to be a douche bag

I wish that I could get bronchitis and never speak again

That would make me about 5 times more appealing

I wish that I could knock her up so that we'd have to get married or at least go through some kind of life changing experience to bring us closer together

Fuuuck

I'm going crazy

But I fucking miss the way that we used to be even though I'm being a melodramatic pussy because we've only known each other for less than 5 months