Monday, June 19, 2007

Well, on Thursday when school let out, me and my friend walked back from subway. He invited us on his trampoline with his friend, and he tried to get me to flash them. It's typical for him... anyway i said not today, maybe later. and he said he was going to hold me to that. then on Friday (this recent Friday) he said "when r we going to hang out? you owe me" and “are we going to have to hang out some more cause you are looking really good” so we made a deal and we met last night in the woods by our house on this bridge. There were fireflies everywhere! it was really kinda romantic even though it was just a fling. he called me while i was walking there and we talked about our lives kinda.. then when i got there we talked a little tad more.. then he made his move. and i had to do my part of the deal.. blech, and then we kissed some more... he kept taking like... breaks... to say "how was that?" and stuff like "you're pretty good for you're first time" and then i said "so after all this time you finally got me." and he goes "yea after 8 summers" which is a lie because he hasn't lived next to me for 8 summers. then he's like haven't you dreamt about making out with me? and i'm like... no and he got all surprised! it was cute. but even though it was fun i still have to remind myself that everything he said was to keep me there i guess... he said other things to make me feel good so i would stay there... like "you’re so sexy", and "why would I be down here if I didn’t like you?"

i kinda don't want to believe that it was just a fling.. I was just another girl for him but yea

on Friday he was like.. i would love to make out with you even if you've never done it before

hes a smooth talker, and he gets what he wants

he wants more.. but i think just as like.. one night hook ups

but more than one ya know?

i know he used to like me.. i think i used to like him

I don't know

I don't know whats going on

i'm full of 'I don't know's

yea he's cute i guess

it was kinda boring and i was getting eaten alive my miskeeters but after wards in my room i was like.. wow

well Meredith thinks third base is a guy up her shirt and a girl down his pants... well he kinda sorta did.. both? but he didn't go past a centimeter down! Oh my gosh this is awkward

he didn’t undo my bra straps

do what?

no he didn't undo them.. just move them up i guess on one side

hah! we didn't "do it"

gross..

i was like.. what the?!

i didn't even notice he went..down.. until later when he was like "you wore a thong just 4 me??" i was like HELL NO

but maybe I did…

he put his hand on the inside of like.. the belt part of your shorts i guess

no further

and he only like felt the side strap part.. there are under ware out there that is like but isn't a thong

he was pushed up against me real hard… I could feel the wood from the bridge pushing in me. He kept like.. swaying back and forth rubbing up against me

for a while I thought that he actually wanted to be there, like I was important to him and he wanted to really enjoy it

i know..

but then again.. he isn't a guy who doesn't get some

he has an ex who comes over to his house all the time

and he's been asking me ever since he moved in

I don't know...

its not like i'm going to meet him in the woods whenever he asks

but maybe I just might

because I have to say

even though it was just a fling

it was pretty hot!