25/02/2008 Time: does it matter anymore?

I feel so sick, nothing makes me feel good anymore. I cry all day, but not real tears. I cry without emotion, its just water dropping down my face.

I never eat anymore and if I do I throw it up, I don't like any I use to like anymore. School dosen't interest me, volona college dosen't. I feel so hungry for nothing

I weight 46kgs now my lowest weight in a while... ive lost 10kgs since new years, I feel gross. My hair is blonde now, not dark brown, I don't like it but making myself

ugly makes life seem better. I hate everyone, everyone is so dull, I don't want to talk to them or sit with them they are ugly. I only wanted to speak to kez... but she hates me and

I think shes the reaosn why people are abusing me on the phone. I don't know why shes gone and changed, why shes a different person now. I loved the old kezia, I guess i've changed too

but I feel myself drifting back to dark... who am I?

well maybe you'll get to know me more as I post some more entries.

Josh