First it’s the initial burn

Because that’s what I wanted, right?

I wanted the burn.

And then it’s the blood

And then it won’t stop

And I get worried, and wonder if I went too deep

And then I use millions of tissues

And a pretty plush white towel

That I’ll have to dispose of

Because bleach does nothing for blood stains

And then

When it finally stops

The itch starts

And I can’t scratch cuz then it’ll bleed again

And then

Then

I cry

Because initially all I wanted

Was to be okay.