Song title/artist: What Sarah Said/Death Cab for Cutie

love, i'm watching

I used to think that the coughing was bad.

Back then, you'd wake up in the middle of the night as another violent coughing fit racked through your body, and you'd cry because you just couldn't stop, clutching at me like I was the only thing that kept you alive. I'd lie awake long after the coughing had subsided, long after you'd fallen asleep again, and I'd stare at the ceiling and wonder what we had done to deserve this. I'd wonder what you had done to deserve this, even though I knew the answer. Even back then, I knew, but I liked to pretend that I didn't, that life would get better, that things would change...

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The human mind is truly extraordinary. If we believe strongly in something, then it becomes true. Faith is the fairy dust of our existence; it helps us fly.

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I thought the coughing was bad, but the silence is worse.

The fluorescent hospital light makes your skin pale and yellowish. You look smaller than you are, frailer, and I wish that I didn't have to be here, seeing you like this.

They say that you won't wake up.

I don't want to believe them. It hurts too much.

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Love, they say, is watching someone die.