Author's Note:

It's kind of depressing, and since it's about me, it kind of makes me seem...well, depressed. I guess I kind of am, because of this guy, but I try to get over it. I'm not over him; it seems kind of impossible to be, but I can get over the fact that I'm depressed. It's my favorite poem that I've written, because it's about me. Okay, that makes me sound self-conceited...whatever! This tells a LOT about my relationship with him; if you read it carefully, or you just have a quick mind, you can see what I've...we've been through.

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Fairy Tale Ending

This girl is a believer, yet she just can't seem to believe

That there's only one boy that she can conceive

She can't get him out of her head and knows it's too late

Her heart wants to love, but she wants to hate

This boy is a heartbreaker, and her heart, he broke

She wants them to be together, but she knows they won't

They could have been something if only she had understood

Those four years ago, and she knew had she would

Hates it she loves him but wonders the meant to be

She can't believe that way back then that she couldn't see

She isn't Cinderella, and doesn't want to be a princess

Every time he is mentioned, she just flinches

She talks to other boys trying to make him jealous

But he just talks to other girls that makes her covetous

He doesn't go intentional, but she gets emotional

Her regret in her heart is growing dysfunctional

If there's one thing she really hates, it's Valentine's day

Even though she sent it, he didn't have to say

She wonders what they could've been if she had seen

He liked her, all his teasing what he really meant

Her life is going crazy as she finds herself crying

She can't tell the truths no more, she finds herself lying

What's happening to her? What happened to them?

All she wants for them is for them to be friends

At night, daydreaming only keeps her sane

Her head still turns at every drop of his name

She loves his eyes, lovely with his smile

She knows that they used to be friends for a while

She doesn't know what's about him that just made

Doesn't tell why she's attracted, she's afraid

That they might just fall in love as well

That kind of pain would be she never felt

She knows she's just kind of obsessed

He's the one she can't get outta her head

She wonders if they're meant to be through past ties

She can't get over him no matter how she tries

He's the only thing that has her drawing hearts

All over her notebooks, split into two parts

Flashbacks and daydreams are all she sees

To go back in time is the key

She doesn't want to think but she thinks she's in love

All this pain he's given her is finally enough

Every time she hears love songs or sees couples

Or when she's reading romance, her pain doubles

She can't ever control her emotions anymore

With a shorter temper and her head getting sore

She's confused, she's angry, she's sad and depressed

All because of him, her life's turned into a mess

She can't stop thinking about the one she wants to hate

Anything can make her think, she doesn't want fate

She wants what they used to be instead of what's now

She wants to get over him but she doesn't know how

She just didn't know it, and she knows life's unfair

She highly doubts that he still even cares

She already knows he's pretty much over her

Still she can't seem to manage his overtures

She remembers everything that they used to have

She doesn't want to ever have the feeling of being sad

But her heart can't contain because she has so many aches

Jealousy and denial just turns her into a fake

Maybe one day God will fulfill all her dreams

Maybe one day he'll see past what she seems

Maybe one day he'll remember what was the past

Maybe he'll think they'd be together at last

Doubt and hope to fate just fills her empty heart

She's just still waiting, waiting for her life to start

She's still waiting for him to open those caring eyes

Still waiting for him to finally realize

Letting go of the old times and keep on moving forward

That's what she tries to do, but nowhere she gets toward

Now that she knows that she liked him all along

Full of regret, it's a pity that he's already gone

She's a daydreamer, and she believes in those miracles

She wants that boy to be expressively spiritual

She wants she hopes she dreams and she wishes

There's so much about him that she misses

She doesn't want anything else

She just wants him

He's the only one

That she wants to be with

But she knows that she won't

Her heart isn't mending

She just knows that she

Won't get a fairy tale ending