Author: mate.feed.kill.repeat PM
What would they say, knowing that I hate everything?Rated: Fiction K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Words: 182 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 02-26-08 - Status: Complete - id: 2480808
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I glower at him
only ten lockers away
wondering what would he say
if he knew what I had told her;
what I had said.
Then I realize that she'd react
probably the same knowing what
I had (written & am planning on showing)
told someone else
The circle continues.
Would she be offended knowing
what I'm thinking deep inside?
She always says she wouldn't,
but somehow I know she would.
This vicious cycle won't stop; I can't
make these thoughts go away, knowing
how much I
everything and everyone around me.
I hate myself, I hate my
friends, I hate my boyfriend,
I hate my life, I hate food, I
The only thing I (love) is
the one thing that I hate the most
but I'm addicted to it
and I can't stop,
hard as I try.
I try to be happy and push these
thoughts aside but I can't
keep up this fake giddiness for
long. I crash. I can't make it
last. I hate this.