To Him

There are things I want to say

Things that are better left un-said

Things I’ve been scared to say

For fear of rejection

For fear of humility

For fear of losing you

When you said you loved me I wanted to fly

When you said you wanted me to leave you alone I wanted to cry

And cry I did

I felt pathetic

I felt useless

To be honest you used me

You played me for months

With bittersweet messages

With witty remarks

Why didn’t you ever tell me?

Why didn’t you tell where I stood?

Now I’m here.

Still in love with you

Still hoping

Hoping you feel the same

Hoping that you never go back to her.

...

The months have gone by

I've moved on

I see you

Now

Instead of crying

I laugh

Because I know

I'm not the pathetic one

It's you

Always has

Always will

Go back to her

If she'll have you...