Did You

Did you wake up this morning alive or dead?
Was your head atop your body, did you remember what you'd said?
Crazed emotion lacks conviction, telescopic energy.
Mediocrity is poison, so you must fake reality.

Did you decide to die
when the sun came up today?
You live your life
in such a suicidal way.
You were breathing when I touched you,
but I guess I must have dreamed you,
did you fade away?
Did you decide -- did you decide to die today?

It's so unnerving, you're learning that what you've learned is wrong.
Were the answers far too simple; you've been trying far too long?
Uninhibited and angry, wrapped in melancholy smile.
To let go now would mean surrender, and you surrendered quite awhile ago.

(When there's nothing left to let go of, what do you let go of,
Did you ever stop to think that maybe you would want to live
Another day?)

Did you decide to die
when the sun came up today?
You live your life
in such a suicidal way.
You were breathing when I touched you,
but I guess I must have dreamed you,
did you fade away?
Did you decide -- did you decide to die today?

Did you try to decipher another lie?
Got that taste off disdain that makes you feel dry?
Did you choose to feel what I'm givin' you?
Does it matter that I'm too late...if I hold onto you?

Did you decide to die
when the sun came up today?
You live your life
in such a suicidal way.
You were breathing when I touched you,
but I guess I must have dreamed you,
did you fade away?
Did you decide -- did you decide to die today?

Will you decide to live today?
(I want to hold you alive.)
Decide to live today?
(I need you here by my side.)
Decide to live today?
(Decide to live..)
Did you decide to live today?