fifteen pages
in a letter. one,
the beginning of many

fifteen pages
to describe how much i hate you
and how much more i love you

fifteen pages
of ranting, rambling words
raging across the pages

fifteen words
to be burned secretly
in the silent dead of night

fifteen pages
of smoke
rising in spirals
disappearing

fifteen pages
of dust
to get caught in your throat
making you cough

fifteen pages
of ashes
to get stuck in your eyes
making you tear
then cry

fifteen pages
that you will never, ever read