What You Do

Just a little one-shot, a sequel of sorts to Ten Things.

1. I love it when you come up behind me and wrap your arms around my shoulders. For a moment, you pretend like you're going to choke me, and then your arms will relax, and you'll rest our clapsed hands on my shoulder.

I hate the cold I feel when you move away.

2. I love it when you simply stare into my eyes. I can't look away; it's as if you're baring your sould to me.

I hate it when somone distracts you, and we have to break eye contact.

3. I loved that time in 10th grade when you stood up for me. I've never felt more protected.

I hate that you don't know, but you're the reason Kyle called me that in the first place. He knew, even then, that I loved you, and that it was never him.

4. I love it that there are more pictures of me inyour locker than of her. I shouldn't, but everytime you swing that locker door open, I feel like gloating.

I hate that her pictures are the ones that have the hearts on them, even if she did draw them herself.

5. I love the necklace you bought me for my 16th. It feels like I'm carrying a little piece of you around, as close to my heart as it can get. As if you weren't already there, in my heart.

I hate to think that some day, you might buy her jewellery too, only this time it might be a ring.

6. I love how I always get to ride in the front if we go somewhere, even if she's with us.

I hate that she's ever with us, period.

7. I love to hear you sing. Or talk. Especially when we're alone, and it's directed to only me.

I hate that she called me to tell me that you told her you loved her, that she was the one who heard those words in your beautiful voice. I've never, ever felt so hollow, so cold, so broken.

8. I love how, when I'm mad at you, you do everything you can think of to get me talking again.

I hate that you never simply think of touching your lips to mine.

9. I love seeing you every single day, having you so close that it nearly drives me crazy.

I hate to think that next year we might be separating. It literally tears my heart into pieces at the thought of loosing you, even for a day.

10. I love that you care about my friendship with her. You know I don't want to lose either of you, and you won't make me choose.

I hate thatI'm too much of a coward to tell you that I can live without her, but that I could never live without you.

I love you.