Color Me Not

Silver dots splashes my face

Gray clouds loom over this place

Golden sun lost the race

Gives the rain, a subtle taste

Tears mingle with the rain

Eyes sad and red stained

Trees made wind tamed

Rain pours over the flames

Care to touch my shivering fingers?

Care to hold my bittersweet heart?

I doubt so, I'll let the rain linger.

I doubt so, what a work of art.

I turn my back on you

You turn your back on me

All we've gone through

Doesn't mean anything.

Anymore.

Care to know what monster growls in me?

Shall I let the monster out? Let's see

No. Do you want to know why?

Because it's not worth to see you die.

I think of you no more. I cherish you no more.

Doesn't matter, I lost the war.

I accept defeat and a lifetime of solitude.

So don't talk to me with that attitude.

I'm not embarrassed.

I'm just disappointed.

I'm not hating you.

I just hate your guts.

You are so vague, so opaque.

You're not part of me anymore.

So go die for god's sake.

Your physical appearance is an eyesore.

No more sulking, No more crying.

I can't continue this any longer

You;re not worth it, not anymore

Like I said before

You want change, I'll give you change.

You'll be living without talking to me.

I cannot stand what you do nowadays.

I thought you were better, but no..you're just fucking lame.

Yeah it's not a big deal, if it's another person.

But not you, not the girl I thought I knew.

This is change, this is Strange,

I won't hold you back, I'll stay the same.

You know no pain, you know no worries.

You dwell in your world that has no apologies.

Sorry is said with your mouth, not your heart.

I've had enough, I really have, and it's hard.

There you stay silent, forgetting about me.

I don't matter, I don't exist.

My words don't matter, they don't exist.

And then you said you didn't want to lose me.

Your dream came true, I know you have others.

Be happy for all I care, you're a nobody.

Your addictions will travel to another.

Be happy for all I know to the extent.

I do not recognize you, I can say that.

Don't mind if I don't look at you dear.

I just don't know who are you love.

I hope all I've said to you is clear.

Good- Bye Old Friend. Friend of Six years. Friend of old.

I'll forget about you. All I say from my heart of gold.

If I did not care, I wouldn't be like this.

But since I did care, I just got hurt like this.