Apologies for the dissapointed

Coming from the heart of an unwanted

We all learn to cope

Who is desperetly trying to cope

We all learn to cope

As the numbness of suprise shifts away

Sometimes you just gotta break though them windows

And all we ever wanted was someone to makes us feel

Like everyone is happy and everyone is normal

But normality is an illusion created by the TV reality

Sometimes real life really is a bitch

So you try to hold the very last strings of

Hope, hoping they’ll give you a feeling of security

But security moved away last month when you started talking

About pills and sex, drugs and rock’n’roll

You’re only as safe as the lock to your heart

Mine’s top notch, bro

You try to search for the words in your head but the air

Is making you see double and breathe slowly

And you know what happens when you run out of air

And there’s just too much space to breathe

And I never liked that

Because when you hurt someone to not hurt yourself

You’re just kicking on ethics & r u n n i n g for survival

You say you are unsure, insecure

Well, screw you, because I never wanted to be here anyway

And don’t I get the right to have the undecisive personality this time?

And these words are choking on my throat, and I can almost hear your thoughts

As I feel my self in the same old position

And, well Emotional Kama-Sutra is the way to go

I do like new things to try out, as long as I’m not the one getting the physical injuries

And I hope you choke on your so called doubts

I wish you could be a little less like me

And more of a person who says things as they are

This is my angry letter, the one I’m not ever sending

But I won’t burn it for the sake of a future memorie trip

The rosed cheeks, the fallen heart, I can smell the signs

From a world apart, and I hate how you know my world is crashing.

Because in the end, we’re all trying to remember how to cope