12:21 AM, March 14th, 2008.

ive been watching the ships coming in from sea.
ive been looking over their tall, proud exterior and see their inside. what i saw reminded me a lot of myself.
to run that ship, it takes work. there are storms. but the crew always has to make it through, before they sink.

so this is where we meet again. where i meet myself. where i reach and reach so that finally, the effort payed off. i see myself again. i see my goal.

not fully yet, but im there, the confusion that was before is lesser and lesser every day. because i can think for myself. i, once succumbed to your power. but i grew strong. i have grown strong. and now i see that it was never you.

it was always me.

it was always me who made me the way i am.
i threw around the blame, but i see im better than that.

that i dont need that, i dont need you.

because i know you,
and all that youve done.
i know you, and i know exactly what you stand for.

you are my past...you are even my present.
you will affect me in the future.

you ought to know what youve done to me by now.
i do. i didnt see it then, but i do now.
you showed me the wrong way.
i shouldnt have followed.

but i will clear my soul.

i seek redemption from you, to be greater, to never be like you again, because i hope to be me from now on.

12:38 AM. rays of light start to stream through the heavy clouds. the storm has passed.

...I never know if it will come back again.