Alone in my room with just pictures
To remember you by
Pictures and dreams, and all the memories
Feel like I'm gonna die
You know they say time flies when you're having fun
Well we had so little time to enjoy ourselves
I'd like to think we'd barely begun

I'm cold, my empty self around me
Crippled when left alone
Straining at the cords that bind me here away from you
I cut my wrists to the bone
I'm so tired of waking up and not seeing your face
Just once let me have my fantasy—smile, take my hand
And save me from this place

God damn, God damn I wish you were here
Help me, help me—sure wish I had a beer
I'm self destructive, I know, but I don't give a shit
This is what I do, I don't care, fuck me I'm gonna deal with it

I can't be alone with you or even see you,
Even hear your voice
If I can't have you to fill the void inside
I've got one last choice
I'm sick of dreaming that we're kissing in the heaven of night
Only to have you torn from my arms when I wake at dawn
I always cry at first light
Fuck why can't you be here
God damn, God damn wish I had a beer

I'm self destructive, I know, but I don't give a shit
This is what I do, I don't care, fuck me I'm gonna deal with it
I'll dull the pain, I'll drink it away
I'll drink myself to death rather than live alone today
Fuck it all, this life, this earth
Without you here, what is it worth?

Nothing here to comfort me, and touch my joyless lips
For lack of you I raise the bottle to my mouth and give it a kiss
I don't wanna have to do that anymore
I don't want this anymore

When you were here
It seemed so real
I'm trying but
I just can't feel
Alive again
I'll try again
And cry again
Because I'll fail again
Yeah, I'll fuck up again
I'm fucking up again
Yeah I'm stuck here in
My fucked up skin
God damn I wish I had a beer