I guess I’m just a little shaken

Feeling just a little stupid

That I didn’t think things through

Before saying that fateful ‘I love you’

When neither of us were really ready

Maybe it wasn’t the right thing to do,

But this part I’ll never tell you:

I meant it, I meant what I said.

My words were sincere, I wouldn’t

Do this for you if I didn’t feel

Something, anything for you.

I know you’re uncomfortable with it,

And you’re not to be blamed for that.

Sure, it sort of...hurts that you

Don’t feel the same way

And probably never will; however,

I can deal with that.

Providing you never mention this

Ever again, the thought makes me

Sick to my stomach, the knowledge

That we’re not on the same page

And of course, the subtle irony of

‘I love everything about you

Yet I don’t love you.’

That doesn’t really make much sense

Or maybe I’m just deluded, a

Very likely possibility.

I don’t regret it, but still...

There’s an irreparable gulf between us now

Made worse by never knowing exactly

What you’re thinking.

Maybe we’re going too fast

Because let’s face the facts

We spend more time kissing

Then we ever do talking.

For me, that’s confusing,

Look, I have no problems with it, just...

I want to be able to chat with you

Do all that cheesy boyfriend-girlfriend shit

Without the need to be physical,

Without winding up on top of you

My legs wrapped firmly around your waist

As your hands creep up my body.

I know you’re a guy and all

So you’ll always push the boundaries

More than I’ll even consider it

But I wish we’d slow down

Take a breath and just reflect

Because I really care about you

That’s why I’m trying so

Goddamn hard to please you.

I want to make you as happy

As you make me.