Black on black,
paint everything nothing double negatives
and run ons's
until we fall then pant
without breath in lungs
fingers tightly curled until I cry out
suddenly and find you lying nearby.

I focus, hear your heartbeat
and I wonder what I've done to deserve someone like you.
And I wonder, wonder wonder
'Till my mind's twisted and screaming
shouting and pleading to give in give in give in give in
Until I fall over from laughter
and tears pulled from the tiny corner of my fears.

If it weren't for the movies,
books and cars the dumps, ghettos, break ups and fuck ups.
Maybe we wouldn't be here now
Standing ankle deep in shit,
but I don't care,
sometimes I won't ever
so just look the other way
We'll make it through.

And maybe
then I'll learn to depend on someone
other than myself and take your hand when it's offered.
But just take your time,
Don't move too fast, I still startle