
Thank you, Alera; without our conversations, I couldn’t have written this. If this will not help me get closer to getting rid of my flashbacks, I don't know what. Please R&R, people!
Rated: Fiction T - English - Hurt/Comfort - Words: 726 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 3 - Published: 04-02-08 - Status: Complete - id: 2498487
|
|
A+ A- |
Succumb To
Three years of bullying, three years of loneliness
I don't know what you who you think you fooled,
But if you think my anger has cooled,
You're wrong
(Chorus)
Don't come to me for forgiveness; it's too late for that.
Because of you, I'm having
Flashbacks
Trouble being alone
Hard not to succumb to the anger
Three years without true friends;
I don't know who you think you were fooling
But if even those of you who didn't bully me, think back
You would see the difference in how you treated me and "the others"
If you think my hardness against you has softened,
You're wrong
(Chorus)
Don't come to me for forgiveness; it's too late for that.
Because of you, I'm having
Flashbacks
Trouble being alone
Hard not to succumb to the anger
How could I be so
Naïve,
Thinking I could be friends with any of you
Very well, then, you didn't laugh while watching me being bullied
All the time,
But that doesn't mean I trusted you
If you think my bitterness has lessened,
You're wrong
(Chorus)
Don't come to me for forgiveness; it's too late for that.
Because of you, I'm having
Flashbacks
Trouble being alone
Hard not to succumb to the anger
Years later, I have a new life
The person you would see now
If you would ever see me, would be someone other
Than the handicapped, weak boy you thought you knew
That
Hopeless,
Pathetic
Loser
That's how you made me feel, how I think of your feelings for me back then
If you think my feelings towards you have gotten better,
You're wrong
(Chorus)
Don't come to me for forgiveness; it's too late for that.
Because of you, I'm having
Flashbacks
Trouble being alone
Hard not to succumb to the anger
Sverre, you were the worst; you turned my friends against me
If I ever saw you again, and was reminded of
A
Certain
Painful
Kick
I wouldn't know what to do
To get that dark and disturbing feeling out
I would have to take the sting on my crutch and
Make you feel
That even I can get angry
That's how you make me feel, years after that period of
Loneliness
Bullying,
Hardship
If you think I've recovered from all that, you're wrong
(Chorus)
Don't come to me for forgiveness; it's too late for that.
Because of you, I'm having
Flashbacks
Trouble being alone
Hard not to succumb to the anger
With these words, I tell the world what you all did to me
You made me lose my childhood friend
You didn't stop to see if something was wrong
Not all of you were like that goddamn handicap hater,
But those of you who weren't, were
Ignorant,
Selfish,
Too hooked up into yourself
You would've noticed how I felt, at least some of it
You wouldn't have taken my sporty attitude for granted
No, I was just playing cool, so I wouldn't make that class into something I didn't want to it to be
I was too nice, too much willing to give all of me without thinking
If you think you knew me at all, you're wrong
(Chorus)
Don't come to me for forgiveness; it's too late for that.
Because of you, I'm having
Flashbacks
Trouble being alone
Hard not to succumb to the anger
I don't know what I did for being treated like that
One moment I was air, the next I was being bullied
Do you think that I can tell you "it's okay"?
No, you're wrong, former class"mates"
Even now, when I've found true friends, who I can
Laugh with
Tell jokes
Talk with about serious things
I will always have that black cut in my soul for what you did to me
As far as I'm concerned, there's no hope for you
You'll never see what you did
(Chorus)
Don't come to me for forgiveness; it's too late for that.
Because of you, I'm having
Flashbacks
Trouble being alone
Hard not to succumb to the anger
|
||||||