Would you rather love someone who didn’t love you or have to tell some one you didn’t love them back?

There was no way of predicting his mood. He could seem as if he was only living for me one day then the next he wanted me to die. I could tell from the beginning he would be the death of me, but I couldn’t stop myself from loving him. It was as if the more he treated me like crap the more I wanted him. I was drawn to him, like a moth to a flame, and I was always the only one who ended up getting burned.

3 weeks earlier…

“Get out!” he yelled.

“Why, I’m sorry! What did I do?”

His green eyes looked at me, with such ferocity, an anger I had never seen in his eyes before,and for a moment I was afraid he was going to hit me. I clutched my shirt tighter to my chest.

“Because you won’t die.” His words had a hint of a threat to them and they pierced my already bleeding heart. I heard hushed whispers; every one that lived on the floor his dorm was on, was listening in. The tears I had been trying so hard to control were now streaming freely down my face. I slowly nodded my head in understanding, and put on my shirt.

“I understand.” I whispered in a horse voice “Goodbye” This was the end, the last straw. He must have understood the finality of my words because the rage that was previously in his eyes was replaced with an emotion I couldn’t read. Something between sorrow and pain. He took two long strides, closing the distance between us and put his arms around me. The arms that only minutes ago made me tremble with fear were now comforting me, in a way that was alien to me. I shook my head against his chest and pushed out of his embrace. He looked at me, confusion clearly written on his face. I shook my head again.

“No” I said “No”

The pattern was repeating itself. And I didn’t want it to, not again.

I grabbed my purse off the bed and walked out of the room ignoring all the people who tried to act as if they hadn’t heard anything and the ones who wanted to know why I was crying. I don’t know when I started running but feeling the icy cold rain against my skin awakened my senses. I looked around begging my brain to make me forget. My surroundings became familiar to me and I realised had subconsciously run to the last place I had wanted to be. I had run to our tree, the tree we had carved our initials into over a year ago. Back when he showed he loved me. I took small steps over to the bark of the tree and with shaky hands traced the letters with my fingers.

M. G

&

T. T

Together for ever

The letters were inside a lopsided heart. I smiled, closing my eyes relishing in the memory.

A year ago...

“Can I open my eyes yet?”

He told me he had a surprise for me, and was leading me by the hand, somewhere I had never been before, somewhere sunny, somewhere where the fallen fall leaves were crunching under my feet. The excitement was bubbling over inside of me and I couldn’t wait any longer.

“Yeah” I immeadtly opened my eyes. I don’t remember what I expected, but this was not it. It was a beautiful willow tree that look like it had taken its home in that sunny meadow hundreds of years ago.

“It’s a tree” I said confused

He laughed. I loved the way he used to laugh. His old laugh was so deep and happy but now he never laughed around me. He was always pissed around me. Like my mere presence just annoyed him. He pulled out a pocked knife and stabbed the tree.

“Not just any tree” he said pulling me over to him “We're going to carve our names in this tree.”

I instantly brightened.

“Really?” I asked

“No.” He looked dead serious and again my heart fell.

“I’m kidding, don’t get so serious” I slapped him playfully

“Meany.”

We stayed the whole day under that tree and we came back every weekend for two months. Until one weekend we got into a huge fight over god knows what and our tree was no longer our safe haven away from the world. That was around the time he changed. He got a new group of friends, died his hair from the beautiful black it was to a fiery red that seemed to match his new temper when he was around me. He used to do things just because, now I’ll be lucky if he calls 911 when he find my lifeless body in what use to be my dorm.

Hmmm so I finally figured out whats gonna happen in this story!

Yep... Chapter II. I am so proud of Apple Cherry muffins! ( The most awesomest person in the world)

So yea the next chapter is... well it just is.

But It should be out next week or sooner!

oh yea If you find any errors that me and my beta didn't catch let me know, please and thank you!