Hope.

I try to ignore it.

I desperately try to talk myself out of it.

The promise of hope.

I attempt to forget it.

I frantically attempt to wipe it out.

The thought of hope.

I strive to resist it.

I worriedly strive to let it go.

Feeling hope.

I struggle to refuse it.

I recklessly struggle to block it out.

Hope.

I knew to ignore it.

I knew to forget it.

I knew to resist it.

I knew to refuse it.

I didn't listen to myself,

Didn't trust myself.

Despair.