Why do things have to be so complicated

Why do things have to be so complicated?

There is always all this bullshit standing in the way of me doing the things I want to do. For once, can’t I just do what I want? What I feel is right? What my body and heart are both screaming at me to do?

I don’t want to deal with my insecurities now. I don’t want to worry about the other people in my life, or the implications of my actions. I don’t want to think about what this means. I just want to do it.

I want to kiss you.

Why should that be so hard? I think you want me to kiss you. I think you like me as much as I like you. Why should we both be tolerating this awkwardness, this small talk, this bullshit, rather than just jumping straight to what both of us are thinking and just doing it.

You like me, and I like you. It’s that simple. Would it be so wrong for me to kiss you? I think it would be right, as right as anything can ever be.

I’m going to kiss you. Do you think that would be okay? I won’t do it if you don’t think it’s okay. I don’t want to upset you. But if it’s okay with you, I’m going to kiss you. I’ll kiss you in the name of simplicity.