Love Angst

Something fuzzy, indistinct in the corner of my eye
‘Cause if I turn my head, what I see will make me cry
Glimpses of fabric, a hand, a mouth, are all that I can bear
I’m bad at masking pain; I flinch and the guise tears
I can’t make my brain turn off; I see it in my mind
Think of how he holds her close, even when I close my eyes
The way he’ll kiss her forehead and she’ll laugh and smile
And I drop my eyes, look away, and disappear for a while
I slide by unnoticed because they’re occupied
They don’t know and they won’t see what I hold inside:
A prayer that I barely dare to whisper even in my heart
Hope that someday they will fall apart
Give me a chance to love without fear
…But that’s not going to happen here
Good thing for me that love is blind or they both would see
Just how crisp and clear the sight of jealousy can be
I know she makes him happy, I’m strong enough to say
Weak enough to think, I wish I made him feel that way
Let loose a cry so powerful I made the dead stir:
I WISH I WERE HER.