Find Your Feet

A/N:hoo ha! This is just a one-shot. a side adventure while I think how I’m going to go on with "My Happy Ending" Hope you enjoy this little story.

There was no other way, nothing to left to say. As much as I didn't want to end it, I knew deep down he didn't care for me the way I cared for him. How could he? Especially when I saw him in the movie that I had asked him to go watch with me, with Karen Kowalski. The little tramp. I didn't do anything except stare at him. The only one I had thought could never do any wrong...well had done so much wrong.

So now here I sit in my room recalling everything that happened between us.

From the very first moment when he asked me out, I should have known it wasn't for what he claimed. It was just to use me, he stayed with me but he was not happy. I could tell, there was no spark behind his eyes when they locked with mine, nothing behind his words...they were empty and dry with cold and bitterness. I had learned to overlook it too, I was just too happy. And he had to break me by staying with me all this time because he thought it didn't matter. And it did.

I remember looking into his big blue eyes on our first date and seeing something...maybe then and only then it was love. And his kiss that night, reminded me of sweet lemonade...you just wanted it to always stay sweet and never change. But he did.

I bite my bottom lip while closing my eyes. I lay the picture of us down so I cannot see his image.

I'm not bitter about it, I should have opened my eyes and realized earlier that he was cheating on me. But I refused to listen to the rumors that were true. I just took every lie he made...to heart that it was the damn truth...and now look at me.

I'm falling to pieces because I let myself get hurt. I wasn't good enough. I had dyed my hair from black to blond, stopped wearing glasses, even got a tan. But it didn't matter cause in the end he just refused to even care about me.

"I love you," he said. It was all just some lie...to get me off his case, I bought into it, never thinking...just smiling away whenever he popped those words...they seemed to make everything better. But deep down whenever we sat at lunch together during the second school semester...I had known there was something wrong. He was too quiet, never said a word. And he always had his mind somewhere else.

"What a stupid fuck! I should have known better than to fall for his lies and all this...it was never real, just some co-cocked fantasy he wanted me to buy into. And I did." I repeated over and over in my dark room lying on my bed.

I guess it was because I was so in love, I refused to see him for what he really was. A fake. And now...tonight is my prom night...he'll be there not with me, but with Karen, his baby girl right from the start.

He never cared about me...so now...why do I still get upset? Because he hurt me...he should have just let me go, but instead he chose to keep me around and toy with my emotions. He won't do it anymore. I'm passed being in love with him, I'm through with him.

'I walked up to him the next day in school; I could feel everyone's eyes on me. I could feel my heart pounding to be set free from my chest so it could let me bleed to death. I bit my bottom lip. He looked at me and smiled that day. I didn't smile...I just walked up to him, face full of determination and hurt.

"Its over...all those lies you've been feeding me for three long months...they end here. I saw you and Karen at the movies... kissing and all. Thanks for pretending to care, for letting me fall further down in my misery." I said and started to walk off.

"I love you Isabelle! Karen is just friend...her sister was with us!" He said.

Another lie.

I turned on my heel toward him...the crowd of people around us increased and I had it in me to slap his down right gorgeous face, but i just smiled sadly and said," Shut up with your lies...they don't work on me. You’re a sick bastard for thinking I’m going to give you another chance. You aren't in love with me! You love Karen." And that was the end.'

I got up and walked over to my prom dress...time to get dressed.

My dress was a baby blue with a little lighter green color over top. Silver sparkling beads and spaghetti straps. It was gorgeous. I curled my newly blond hair and applied little make-up. What was the use of applying all that foundation and lipstick and blush if it couldn't cover up the hurt on your face that you wanted to hide?

Once I arrived I saw my friends standing out front of the gymnasium where our prom was. Nobody had gone inside yet. They were waiting for the teachers and aides to check tickets...and there he was...with Karen in her sluttish dress. I rolled my eyes, I was much better than that. And way prettier than her. I put on my smile for the night and got out of the vehicle and walked toward my friends.

I could feel eyes all over me, it was the first time anyone had seen me so formal and really dressed up.

"Look how pretty she is"

"That dress is gorgeous..."

"I bet Eddie wishes he didn't cheat on her"

"Man, I wish she was my date" His girlfriend slapped him and turned away.

"I hope she has a great time even without a date...she is so strong and independent anyways."

I smiled more as I walked by Eddie, not even acknowledging the fact he was stunned by my appearance. Too bad I don't care. Thanks to him, I matured a lot more. I grew up into a beautiful woman...even though I'm seventeen. I felt like I could take on the world. Nothing that night could bring me down not anymore.

Me and my friends took pictures of us and we laughed and awed at each other's dresses. That’s when it happened...it got everyone's attention.

Kevin Sturtevant, one of the seniors this year, one of Eddie's friends. Who usually agrees with everything Eddie does...tonight he wasn't agreeing. He was up in Eddie's face. My smile widened. Even though it was wrong...I couldn't help but think how scared Eddie was.

"Your a dumb shit Eddie, cheating on her. With the school's tramp! I should've have told her. She deserves way better than you!" He pushed Eddie backwards a little.

"By all means...dude, she's single...have at it!" He sighed walking off with Karen. "But she'll never let you touch her!" Kevin stood there and looked at Eddie...

It’s true. I wouldn't let any guy touch me. But just to rain on Eddie's parade and because Kevin had always been one of the nice guys...I walked up to him and wrapped my arms around his neck. Eddie watched me. And rolled his eyes.

"Would you mind if I escorted you in?" He whispered in my ear. I smiled and pulled away.

"I would love that very much." And we walked in together.

Sometimes when you least expect it, life will throw you off your feet and challenge you to get back up. You have to find where your feet stand in those times and know where you stand balanced at.

Find your feet...no matter what it takes or how long it takes you to get there...you have to get past the hard times in order to see good things come to those who wait.

The End