11. 7. 07

Filling Hollowed Hearts

Listen to me my friends,

And you will begin to understand,

That I am not just this mere girl that stands before you,

I am a catacomb of sores,

A device of exploration,

A chronicle in the making,

A diamond for the taking,

Just in need of a shine.

Never afraid of wasting life,

Or looking back on my past, at all the things said and done,

Because they were all simply for fun, or so I tell myself.

I have been a maid, a doctor, a keeper of the peace, and a sailor on the high seas,

Traveling to far off places,

Meeting many different faces.

I was everything that you wanted me to be.

I have been a friend, a lover, a fighter and even a mother.

I have given advice,

About things from life to death,

From love to hate,

From family to personal issues,

And in them all I have given you myself,

In pieces,

Thrown across the floor,

Shattered,

Forming iridescent shapes,

That seem to take the place,

Of the hollow parts of your hollowed heart.

Through these spaces and through the many faces that I have become,

I have lived the lives of everyone else, but myself.

In all these things that I have been and all these places that I have seen,

Only one thing forever defines me..

The roles that I play affect me more each day,

Over time I loose track of who I am as I continue my sin.

I’m a prostitute..

In my defense, I want you to think about something when you’re fucking me,

As you try to image me how you’d like me to be,

Dressed in lace or holding a whip,

Making your fantasies come true,

How about instead try to think about the life I live,

And how I must feel,

To not even have a face,

Because it’s continually hid in disgrace.

Know me, for who I really am,

A simple girl doing all she can to stay in this world,

By pretending to be apart of yours.

Daddy, Daddy,

Do you still love me?

Daddy, Daddy,

Remember to hug me.

Daddy, Daddy,

Why did you beat me?

Daddy, Daddy,

Please forgive me.

Daddy, Daddy

Why did you leave me?

Daddy, Daddy,

I don’t understand..

Why nothing in life ever makes sense.