Every time he calls it’s the same

He asks why I was crabby

He asks what’s bothering me

But I can never tell him,

I cant open up to him

He may be the only dad I ever knew

But it just doesn’t feel right.

I can never tell him I don’t want to feed animals

And he always guilts me into helping with chores and projects.

I wish he could understand how much I cant stand my mom

And would let me move in with someone else so I don’t have to put up with her.

But like he admitted a few nights ago

We are in the same boat

Neither of us is showed much love by mom

And she never wants to do things

So he always wants to do things with me,

Wants to go see movies

Or go horseback riding,

Causing me to feel obligated to do these things

And be home to watch kids in the mornings for him so he can sleep.

I am always left feeling cheated by him and mom

And stuck where I am for fear of disappointing or hurting them.

But things never feel quite right

Like I will be stuck forever in this life style

And will never be able to get out

No matter how hard I try I will feel obligated to help them.