Yeah, I wrote this because of boyfriend trouble. :(

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You,

I don’t really know where to start. There’s so much I want to say that I might forget some things.

Well, here it goes.

I love you. You know that. I just wanted to remind you in case you forgot. I never thought I’d find a guy like you. Someone I could talk to, really talk to but still be stupid with. You know? I never thought I’d find a guy that would put up with my mood swings and tantrums. Someone who waited until I was sure, someone who would bring me California Maki just ‘cause I said I didn’t like what was on the dinner table. Do you remember that? I do.

I miss you. You know that too. I miss the way we would talk, I miss the conversations we would have, I miss your corny lines, I miss the way you’d always check up on me. I miss the way you would take care of me. I miss the way you’d always reach for my hand, even though sometimes I pull away. I miss the way you’d put your arm around me, it always made me feel safe. There was a sense of comfort there. But most of all I miss your lips. Yes, I’m kind of embarrassed to admit it but I miss the way you kiss me. The way you pulled me tighter into you. I miss the taste of you.

Please come back to me. I don’t want to loose you. I don’t think I could function properly. I need you, you stupid boy. I need you with my everything. Without you there’s like there’s this big gaping hole in my chest & it’s threatening to rip me in half. It’s empty yet it hurts, it throbs. Do you know how that feels? It’s not nice. I am at a lack for better words. I told you before, I’d die without you. And it’s like I am dying already.

People tell me you’re not worth it, but they don’t know. They don’t know what I know; the more they don’t know how I feel. How much I love you, how much it hurts that I can’t be with you, that I can’t take care of you anymore.

I’m not looking for an apology, I never was. I never thought you were of any fault. I just felt over looked, or something like that. I just missed you too much & I made it too much of a big deal. I’m sorry for that. I’m sorry if you feel that I wasn’t exerting any effort for you, that you felt that I didn’t have time for you. I’ll change now, I promise. Just come back to me. Please?

I love you. I miss you. I’m sorry. Be mine again. :(

With all the love there is to give,

Your one & only (still, I hope.)