Dear Angel

Dear angel that
I cannot see
Someday will you show
Yourself to me

In this letter to you
What is there to say
That I love you is as sure
As the coming night and the day

Sometimes I wonder
Are you really there
When I reach out my hand
I feel nothing but air

I try to have faith
That you will appear
That one day you'll leave
Is my greatest fear

Once he had loved me
But now I'm not sure
For the rift formed between us
Perhaps time is the cure

Will you protect me
From the pain he will cause
Maybe you'll simply
Put my sad life on pause

You watched in the past
Each time that I fell
And I shut myself up
In my tight little shell

Each time you would pry
Back open, my life
And watch me while
Would cut skin with a knife

And once I was done
You'd hold me while I
With blood on my arms
Would sit there and cry

And through all the pain
You helped me move on
And after some time
The pain was all gone

And as if you had sent him
He came and healed me
Like my heart had been locked
And he held the key

But then she was there
As if on a whim
The girl that would try
To take from me him

What if he likes her
What will he say
Will he break my heart
As if it is clay

Will he leave me
Broken and torn
And for our love gone
Will ever he mourn

And always I wonder
Why'd you send him to me
He deserves better
But I can't let him be

The day that he leaves me
I might just break down
And look like the pauper
In the old and torn gown

And then will you be there
To catch all my tears
And stay with me to
Hold back all my fears

Will you stop me when I
Try to paint my skin red
When I need it will you
Try to put me on meds

And then will you stay here
And show me that I
Am loved by an angel
Who lives in the skies

And I ask myself now
Am I just a fool
As I close this box
Of letters to you

Dear Angel that
I know I love
Someday will you take me
To the Heavens above