Him

I watched him from the back of the class. Not trying to be obvious just watching him. What can a girl say about him? He's smart, hansome and everyone's dream boy. He has everyone's attention and continues to shock the students with his cunningness. His eyes are like the sky, two pools of blue you could get lost in and stare at for hours. His hair looks so soft..though I don't really know, but its the color of ebony,and the cologne he wears..oh man its heavenly just as you walk by him you have to smile and take in another breath just to make sure, and he's never without his tan...what can I say...he's perfect in my eyes.

I don't when I started staring at him or 'watching' him but I somehow wished that I never had, because deep down I knew what I was getting myself into. I looked away going back to my writing assignment , then again what was the use when the teacher wasn't even here today, she would give us the weekend. Lets go back to my previous topic; Kevin Harden. He was the school playboy without doing anything, every girl wanted him. Yes even me now that I've had a class with him.

I usually keep to my own never look at the guys, because I know they are trouble, my last boyfriend proved that to me not to long ago. But when semester break was over, they put me in a creative writing class with some cheerleaders and basketball players. Ha-ha...I couldn't have fit in any more perfect. I was just your average girl, who sits in the back of the class watching everyone else. I didn't wear glasses nor braces, I was the quiet girl with inner beauty rather then outside beauty. I didn't believe in having sex before marriage. I was my own person in every sense. Though sometimes the girls up front came back here to ask advice on the writing assignments, I didn't like them because how they treated me outside of class but who was I to turn down giving advice. It made me feel needed in a weird way.

"Oh Kevin, did you really?" came the shrill voice of Lenna, his girlfriend who I despised, for one she had already cheated on him...HOW COULD ANOYNE CHEAT ON HIM? Sure he was only human but he's everything a girl could want, he's patient, he listens and he supporst everyone's ideas. He's not selfish like Lenna and her friends who would rather hang him in a trophy case and show him off rather than let him be himself.

I shifted in my seat putting down my pen and laying my head down. I couldn't stand watching anymore, Lenna was a sicko taking all the advantage of people and using poor Kevin for her sadistic games. Maybe thats why I liked him is because I was different not like every other girl, I didn't want to use him and I didn't expect to be used. I knew he would never hurt me, he never hurts anyone. But somehow I wish he would grow up and leave Lenna before he got hurt.

I peeped up at the clock. nine forty seven, three minutes left in writing class. Thank god, but I didn't want to leave Kevin, see thats how I felt. I knew deep down he didn't go for girls like me...the rebel without a cause, the ones who kept to theirselves, protested against keeping children longer at school. I was just as invisible as the day I had bumped into him saying sorry and he didn't even notice me. I bit my bottom lip getting up as the three minutes had already passed, and the bell had rang. To my luck nobody was in the class except me. I liked walking out into the hall alone, although I never made it far before Chris found me begging me to go back out with him. Speaking of which, here he comes.

"Hey sugar." He tried putting his arm around me, I pushed it away and kept walking, to my most despising moments, I had to walk down passed Kevin's locker and while I walked down the "jock block" as everyone called it, I had a stalker behind me. Great. "Look I'm sorry I fucked up!" He uttered catching everyone's attention in the hall. Now people were staring at me.

I turned so quickly feeling the heat flash in my cheeks, and I opened my mouth to say something when Kevin caught my eye. He was watching as well...so was Lenna. I diverted my eyes and continued to look at Chris.

"You just don't get it do ya? You did fuck up and not only that but with my own sister! I don't want anything else to do with you, I've moved on." And I walked away leaving him in a oceans of "What the fuck?" and laughter. I wasn't about to stand there and let him have the satisfaction of knowing how much he really hurt me.

Break wasn't much different, I had to go outside around the big oak tree for some peace and quiet. Chris never would have thought to look there. And thankfully he wouldn't because he was allergic to pollen, smiling I laid back against the tree closing my eyes. It was a nice warm day out, no clouds, a nice breeze going. I could hear some boys playing football on the other end of the grounds. I loved hearing them yell,"hike!" it was so funny.

I guess I was almost fully asleep when I could feel the heat of the sun leaving and a overcasting shadow in front of me. I held my breathe and didn't move...if it was Chris, I would have to practically grab him and take him to the nurse all the while he whined and complained he was okay. But I finally opened my eyes..and they would have bulged out of my head if I had not already yelled "KEVIN?" He smirked.

I just stared at him.

"I was wondering if I could join you...Irene." He said. I nodded and he sat down. Firstly I didn't know what to be more shocked over, him using my first name that for once I didn't mind..because as it rolled off his tongue, it sounded so sweet and not torture or the fact that Lenna wasn't on his arm. This is the guy who I would practically die for if he talked to me and here we are, sitting without talking. This is a memorial moment.

"Why aren't you fawning over me?" He said it so fast it caught me off-guard. I just shrugged, somehow I never found myself gaping and holding my breathe until I was purple when I looked at him or passed him. To me yes, he stood out from the rest of the guys, but I knew he was just another male with his dark intentions...no matter how perfect he seemed to me.

"I guess I'm just different, I never fawn over any guy. I keep to my own and after today's incident with Chris, I'm just keeping my distance." sounded harsh, but the look in his eyes..oh I could have melted, he actually seemed to enjoy hearing me say that.

"Well I'm glad there is one girl dfferent in the crowd who knows how to keep her head and not show her feelings." he was staring at me now. I didn't look at him.

He knew how I felt? Shit! Oh well there was no running from it now. Yes I liked him, probably would never have a chance with him and some how I felt so natural just answering his questions. I sighed and looked at him. He didn't take his eyes off me.

"Its not like you don't have enough girls going ga-ga..so I'm just going to leave you to your peace." I was holding back tears in my eyes, I couldn't hear anything he yelled at me, I didn't want to. I was stubborn as all get out and I knew even if someway in the world he ever asked me out, it would be weird around all his friends, I would be the odd-girl out. I would only be in everyone's way. Because I like him, I have to let him go...I could have said yes I do like you...but then I would be like Lenna who jumped at the opportunity. But I wasn't one to jump at them. I just did what I had to do. And literally putting myself out there for another guy..I was too much in pain from the last so I have to walk off. I hear him yelling and I don't stop, I just pushed my brown hair out of my glossy eyes and walked inside.

Chris was standing there...his eyes on me, and I looked over to him. Was he just waiting on me? Once I just though about running back to him for he was my comfort zone, but I couldn't, it wasn't in me and I guess I shocked even him, he expected me to walk over to him and lay on my head on his chest and let him wrap his arms around me...no not today, not ever again. I walked on, not looking at anyone and not feeling the eyes on me for once.

I smiled walking into my next class, the tears finally stopped and I sat down in my seat behind my sister Zoey. She kept giving me looks but I never returned them.

He was all I needed, all I wanted, all I ever dreamt about, but under this school me and him would never happen because of cliques and how people treated each other. I wiped away the tears and continued to open my history book. I never had noticed the name of the previous owner..but it was Kevin. I smiled. Maybe...just maybe someday we might have a chance together but not here in this school.

The End