Lost

The surprise of talking to old friends

Brings out many different feelings, of

Surprise, happiness and some old emotional feelings

I’ve told myself I’d never feel this way with this person again

However, while talking to him these emotions crept up

Not good, or bad, just anew

To hear his stories, of

What he’s done, where he’s gone and what his plans are

Almost make me wish I was in those future plans

He’s still the same, caring and loving

No matter what I’ve done to him

And I’m still the same, scared and insecure

It’s just weird how these feelings can happen

I tell him my plans, my problems

He listens, observes, making little comment on the good

Saying that my problems could be worse

Reminding me of the current man in my life

Just little things remind me of him to the current

I start to feel guilty, and strange

Asking myself,

“Could I still be in love with him?”

My mind rushing, no, no, not again

He’s got someone else, and I do too

It still wouldn’t work out

Even if we didn’t have someone

It didn’t work out before

Though I still think, wow, he’s changed

And I guess I have too

So I wonder,

Could it work out again?

But no, we are just friends now and

It wouldn’t, it couldn’t work out for the both of us

I’m just wondering, has those feelings come up in him too?