The words I wish I could write

The words I wish I could write

Just don’t seem to come my way

Because the feelings I need to write about

Just aren’t perfect in any way

So, I’m putting them here

Simply and flawed

Getting out of my air built castles

Into my deep, dark waters.

There’s just too many I wish I could tell you

Yet the words just don’t come out

The things I wish I could just say

Don’t sound right in my head

So I keep on holding on to all my fake friends

I lean on my crutches

Despair, hope and self dellusion

I can’t make this ryhme, but I’m not trying to

I’m in this pit of self pity, remorse and confusion

And being a drama queen never quite suited me.

I.

I don’t know what to say, how to say it

And where to say it.

I need to do something, but every action I can think of

Seems fake or just complicated

And I always liked the easy way into anyone’s heart

Because if I have to fight for it

Then it’s probably not worth the fight

And I’ve tried to write it in a million way

But I can’t because I know it’s my fault

I’m the one who has the hero complex

I’m the one who’s flawed.