Temptation

Your arms open
beckon me
and I answer their call
pressing my head
against your
chest
shoulder
neck
I move in for the kill
tilt my head up
to tell you thanks
for being here
but no words are said
I look in your eyes
for a fraction of a second
and I know we are
thinking the same thing
because we both
act on it
lips come together
only for a moment
but in that instant
the one feeling
I focus on is
the way
your soft lips graze mine…

I spiral out of your arms
hide my face against the wall
you tell me
I have a boyfriend
I know I do!
I’m such a whore
what am I doing!?
the funny thing is
my way of apologizing
is to go back to your arms
bury my head in your chest
what am I doing!?
and keep telling you
I’m sorry, I’m sorry I’m sorry…
what am I doing!?
you say don’t worry
but how can I not

why did I do it
we’re supposed to be
friends
I don’t even know you
that well
I didn’t think
I would ever like you
like that enough
for me to act
upon my thoughts
they’re not supposed
to come true

Now I’m hiding
behind a mask
for him, the one
I love to keep him
safe from me
if he knew
there would be nothing
I could do to
keep him with me
even if I said
I won’t do it again

I know I won’t.

©2008 Stefanie Czyzyk