My Heart Will Not

My thoughts will be with you everywhere

My heart will not

It’s too cold and bitter to be touched

Everything that I said you heard

The way I spoke with any accent I desired

You rarely dissent

You withstood everything I lashed out before you

My anger

My tears

My complaints

You once tried to hold me

When I was in pain

But I shrugged off your comfort

For I have grieved and consoled myself alone

You might have thought it was strange for me

To spend so much time in solitude

But it’s the only way to heal myself

Even though in my conscience you deserve more

I cannot provide something

That I can give myself which is love