Lost

Far away from reality

Guilt

Weighing down upon me, pushing me to the ground

Lies and deceit

Are all I know anymore

My world is one of untruth

I never purposed for this to happen

I don’t want it to end this way

But I cant give up my friends

I don’t want to; I want to keep them forever

I’m not trying to start a war

All I want is to be happy

I can’t even talk about it anymore, it’s gotten so bad

I open my mouth and guilt rains down on me

Why won’t this all just go away

I never expected it to go so far

Tears flow freely

I’m missing who I once was

Either path I choose now

There is going to be a part of me missing

It’s just a no-win situation

A gaping hole inside of me,

Tortures me day and night and

I can’t escape my fate

I try to run but it haunts me

It never lets me rest.

Now I wonder if there is any escape

Or will I live with this forever?

I can’t even understand the choices I’m making lately

I’m surprising myself

What I once was sure of is now uncertain

I’m lost and I’m not sure I’ll ever be found

I cannot please anyone, especially not myself

I am simply useless

I’m thinking maybe I was meant to be alone

I can’t help it but I know it’s wrong

I know I am

Disconnected.

What do you think? I wrote it when I was REALLY depressed so it might just be sorta depressing and random and wierd and not make any sense. Anyhoo, plz R&R! no flames, please! Love,

SAJM