It’s time for me to be honest with Matt

It’s time for me to be honest with Matt. I don’t have a choice. He’s becoming way too close to me. Way to in love and if I don’t tell him soon I’m afraid that I’ll have no choice but to move to Mexico where he can’t find me. I have to slowly break the truth to him. I can’t give him the whole truth all at once. Mostly because I don’t reminder what I lied about exactly. I had thrown in so many little white lies it would take way too long to confess to those. Tonight I’m going to tell him my real name Dylan Gregory Thomas. I hated my name, it’s just way too boring that’s one of the reasons I lied to him. Matt is a boring name too, so I don’t feel too bad. If I were Matt I would have lied about my name and given myself a cool name like Xavier, or Illyria (is that a girl name?). I chose Zylon out of the pure pressure to choose a name quickly. And there is no such thing as a name with a ‘Z’ in it that ISN’T cool. Zylon though isn’t even a real name and to this day I am still very surprised he bought it.

He signed on to AIM that night and as usual he was the first one to IM me. My main page hadn’t even finished loading and his instant message box popped right up in front of me. Here is a copy of our conversation. I changed the screen names to our actual names just so anybody who reads this doesn’t IM us.

MATT: HEY Baby

ME: Matttttt how r u?

MATT: All is well. I bought a new blanket today.

ME: And?

MATT: For OUR bed.

ME: Oh…

MATT: Something wrong baby?

ME: No. Looking forward to the day when I get to lay with you, that’s all.

DAMNIT! Why the hell did I say that? I always have so many windows just to open up, but I have a lying addiction.

MATT: Aw, your 2 sweet.

ME: I know.

MATT: Lmao, conceited.

ME: Noooo, just in love with myself.

MATT: lol

ME: heh…baby I have to say something.

MATT: Okay.

ME: You love me right?

MATT: Duhhh

ME: And you’d love me no matter what right?

MATT: Yeah…where are you going with this?

ME: I’ve lied to you.

MATT: You know how I feel about liars…what was it?

ME: My name isn’t Zylon.

I waited for a very long time for a response, only to receive this message.

MATT HAS LOGGED OFF

If he couldn’t handle that fact that I lied about my name, then how the hell would he take it when I told him more truths? I don’t know now, if I’ll ever get that chance.