Like sudden rain on a summer day he is the only dark cloud in my otherwise untainted sky of happiness

Like sudden rain on a summer day he is the only dark cloud in my otherwise untainted sky of happiness. He seems to strip all the glitter from my world and I don’t fully understand why save to say that he feels like an old enemy lost long ago amid countless memories and dreams.

Perhaps he is merely the embodiment of all I have lost time and time again, perhaps his energy is wrong, or his smile too familiar, whatever the cause his mere presence chafes at my heart like an itch I can’t scratch. And yet he remains oblivious accepting my false friendship with open arms. He ignores the anger that rolls off my shoulders and the forced smiles that don’t quite reach my eyes with his laugh that always seems a little too loud. But men only ever see with clouded eyes and his are near being blind. So it is no surprise that he cannot see the hostility behind my eyes.

The strange thing though is that she can’t see it either. She, who knows the very depths of my soul, still ignores the pain on my face and the doubts on my lips…But she must’ve noticed the tears on my shirt because she asked me what’s wrong. It’d be so easy to lie to her the way I have all along, brush it off, shrug my shoulders and act like nothings’ wrong…

She’s too smart for that though and she’ll keep asking till I tell. So I’ll let her read these words, let this page damn me to hell. She’ll say “oh well” and “there’s nothing you can do!” And I’ll let her drift away to him and she can be my black cloud too…

A/N: So this is dedicated to my best friend Charly and her boyfriend Jesse. At the time this was written I didn’t like Jesse, since then I’ve gotten to know him and we’re good friend but they inspired this one afternoon when I felt particularly left out. R/R laters!!

Sexy Sammy

Love, Luck, and Lollypops ;)