Did I do wrong

Did I do wrong?

Did I do right?

Should I have acted sooner, later?

Was silence the best answer?

Or were words needed?

God, you’re not answering me.

I worked hard, but it didn’t come off.

Should I have worked harder?

Should I have started sooner?

Or was I doing the wrong thing all along?

Please, explain.

I spent time with work and lost a friend.

I spent time with my family and got an F.

Then I had to work harder to get rid of that.

What’s going on?

Heads I win, tails I lose – when will it land on its side?

I’m only mortal; I can’t perform this miracle.

God, You know everything. Why won’t You help me?

Father I want to go to church, but I just don’t have the time.

Finals are coming up soon, that needs my attention first.

I know family is important, but collage is too.

You’re still my priority, God, but You’re just not helping right now.

These are supposed to be the best years of my life.

But I can get around to fun sometime soon.

First I have to prepare for collage, to prepare for work, and then I’ll get back to “fun”.

Isn’t this the time to be sheltered but free?

Aren’t I supposed to make mistakes and laugh at them?

Isn’t this the time to live and learn?

But only those who look ahead get ahead.

I have no time for now; I need to work for to be.

Yes Lord, I know that the flowers and birds don’t look ahead, but they don’t have finals either.

God, this world keeps contradicting itself.

I don’t understand.

You know everything, why won’t You tell me?

Help me Father, why won’t You help me?

Is it because it’s my own fault that I got here?

God I tried. You know I tried.

I called out to you, remember?

You didn’t answer, though, and I had to move on.

This world is confusing Lord, I’m not sure what to do.

When will You help God?

When will You answer God?

When you will listen child.