Apologies for the guilt trip, but I am

apologetic for your mom. She lost

her mommy and the only person

who ever called her mommy

within three years. I wanted

to have your babies, so maybe

your mom could look them in

their innocent eyes, hear "Grandma!"

and feel like she's looking at you.

I want her to look at me

and realize there was someone

in the world who loved you

just as much as she did.