--

You were there,

I remember

I

swear it.

I never thought

you'd do it,

never thought you'd

give in.

After all the years

I've pressed

and pushed so

softly,

hoping you would

touch me,

Just how I wanted you to.

And then you

did.

Touch me

softly,

gently

how I wanted you to.

Feather fingers

on my hand,

Eyes following

everything.

Trailing up bare

arms,

shoulders

over fabric, up

neck.

Eyes locked,

breath

fast

faster.

Your face

in front of

mine.

Inches,

not even.

Lips,

so

close,

a lick

mine or yours?

a moan,

again I ask.

Soft

pressure,

just like I used on

you

to get you to

do this.

Sweet

taste,

yours and

mine,

together.

I didn't notice

your

tongue,

until it was

next to

mine.

How long

can only be

a guess,

so long,

not nearly long

enough.

When I opened

my eyes,

after a time,

you were

gone

and I

looked but couldn't

find.

You were there,

I swear

you

were.

I remember

your taste,

feel your

tongue

pressed to

mine,

still,

I still feel

you,

only you.

I see you

now

and you still

ignore,

miss everything.

I try to

ask,

see if you

did,

kiss me

or

if I just

wished it.

But you're as

you

always were,

pretending

you couldn't see

wouldn't,

refused to see

me,

as I am.

But I swear

I remember,

I felt it

you,

I felt you,

it was

you,

no one else,

not a

dream.

And if

it happens

again,

if I feel

you.

If you let

yourself be who

you are,

not who they think

you are

remember

I'll

always

be

here.

Just waiting

for you to

choose.

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