I don’t want to do it your way

03-12-2007 11:20:00

I don’t want to do it your way. I don’t want to change your mind. And when you keep sleeping our problem won’t go away. I wish it was not true, but such a seductive voice made me change my mind once again. And such a charming hand can’t be rejected, can it? Because we both know the end has no end, and it never had.

Just recognisable. You’re recognised around here. Around there. You’re not known anywhere. No, I do not like the way she is around and no, I do not like the way you like it nowadays, no I don’t. I can’t win. You can’t win. There’s no winner and it’s impossible to win when they’ve won. Tell me a story, please. Please. Please, help. Help.

How did he manage to read our mind? The night’s not over yet. The party just begun and I need another drink. Give me one, please. Give me all those dreams I drew as a little child. It’s different this time. I’m not trying hard enough. Do you want to be reminded? Down we go.

It’s time for us, but how far can we get when there isn’t any time at all? I found you some sympathy and this must be enough. A scarf, red, desired by most. So many things in the sea. So many on the land. Let me put them in the fire. A fire we created.

Change my view, please. White walls never charmed me a lot. It’s not easy to be seen. We’ve got a city to love, but it’s horrific in every way. I need an umbrella. Shield it against climbing smoke. And I don’t like the way you use your eyes to make me gasp every time you enter the room.

At least you still got your words.

You probably know how to use such an item, so go ahead I’d say. Found some tunes. Let them be borrowed. You know. No, you don’t. Damn, you do not. Feather floating, fishes caught. Water transmission made it harder for them to be put back. Blue, blue shoes. Liked them better yellow. Body as a cage, mind as a key. Lost my mind. Threw the key away. I don’t write any better now.

Is this the stage I want?

Stop teaching me a lesson, because I already learnt. We’re alone together and clouds are not. Go left, left, right! I wish for you to find me. I must belong to something, right? Left? Dictionaries never really impressed me that much, but I think you did. I don’t want to exist. You exist. I want to be. Live. Life. You are. I am. We’re escaping.

Tum, tum tum tum, tum. Song in my head. Light giggling. Heavy reaction. I’m afraid to go to sleep. I’m afraid of facing the truth. I’m scared to face you. Let me have a new tomorrow. You must have written it. Are we done?

Please tell me if you feel like playing game, because we’ve never been very serious anyways. Up and down. Gone, but here. We walk, we go, we observe the spinning. We’re magic.