Chapter One - Eventually

“Torturing the organs no one can see…”

Waking up I felt different. I felt like time had kept going and left me behind to cope with its problems. What did I ever do?

Feeling like my body could be used as an anchor I sat up. Instantly, a pain shot its way up my spine and fanned out to the edges of my back. I groaned as a reply. My small hands reached out for my cane, but I couldn’t find it. Truthfully, I wouldn’t be surprised if I’d left it somewhere in the house.

“Evelyn?” Oscar’s groggy voice radiated from the spot next to me. I turned toward the voice, giving him a puzzled look. “Where are you going? It’s two a.m.” He added, grasping my hand.

“Oh… well, then, I’m going back to bed.” I smiled sheepishly before laying back in my place. I felt stupid.

“Hey… It’s okay.” His husky voice whispered as he sidled up next to me and wrapped his arm around my waist.

“But I can’t even tell what time it is!” I cried, burying my flaming cheeks into my own pillow. Oscar responded immediately by flipping me over to face him. I couldn’t see him, but I could picture the look on his face. His green eyes flashed in my mind, along with the dark red of his hair. In response my hands reached out to his face. I’d seen it in movies, when the girl would try and see the person’s face by doing this, but I wanted to remember it. The stubble on his chin made me smile, as did the curve of his lips. “I’m sorry I’m putting you through this,” the whisper caught me off guard. I hadn’t expected to say that.

“Oh, Evelyn…” Oscar scooted closer to me and put his forehead onto my own. The touch was relaxing. Instantly, my eye lids covered my blank eyes. “This is not a burden,” he breathed, “it’ll definitely be an obstacle, but we’re going to make it through. I don’t care if I have to carry you the whole damn way.” His answer touched my heart. I buried my head into his shoulder and let his scent drift up into my nostrils.

“You promise?” My voice scared me. I didn’t mean to put the note of fear in it or let my shakes release.

“I promise.” I could hear the confidence in his voice. I needed that more than anything within that moment and he’d given it to me. I wish I could be that strong.

Oscar took in a deep breath, “lets go back to sleep.” I don’t know what it was, but there was hardness in his voice. It sounded as if he wanted to hurt someone. Something told me it wasn’t me, but instead the demon I’d been given and in that second I knew that I could count on him to make everything okay.

Morning came swiftly, taking over my senses and attaching itself to everyone around. This time when I awoke I knew it was morning. Thanks to Oscar I could feel the light breeze and smell the morning dew coming from the window. I stood, feeling the carpet sink around my feet and padded over to the window. My hand lifted to find the string that would open the blinds. I couldn’t see the sun, but I wanted to feel it on my skin. The warmth would bring me a happiness I hadn’t felt in awhile. Who knew how helpful the sun could be?

Instantly, I felt the caress of sunlight as my blinds fell open with a groan. I closed my eyelids and allowed the feeling to sweep over me. My brain pictured the sun and I thought it was funny how I would always be able to see behind my eyes, but not through them. I reached forward and put my hand on the window. The pads of my fingers brushed through the blinds and onto the glass. Sunlight radiated onto them, caressing them in an energy that brushed over my body. It seemed that the sun rays were going into my body through the pads of my fingers. A sigh filled me with contempt. Thoughtfully, I turned around. I could feel someone’s eyes on me.

“Oscar?” I questioned. “Is that you?”

“Yeah,” I could hear the smile in his voice. “I made you breakfast,” he added quickly. I knew he’d seen me a few minutes ago. I don’t know how much of it he’d seen, but I know it made him happy. I could sense it.

“Oh? What did you make?” The excitement packed into my voice. With the thought of food my stomach growled loudly. Oscar’s laugh caressed my ears with its beautiful music.

“Just eggs and pancakes...” He made it sound so simple, so normal that he’d made breakfast, but I used to cook for him. The thought surfaced before I could force down; I kept the smile on my face, anyway.

“Well, let’s go eat!” I exclaimed, bounding forward and forgetting that I couldn’t see where I was going. I stopped abruptly, feeling the change on my facial features. Oscar must have seen the slight panic cross my face, because he stepped forward and grabbed my hand.

“Yes, let’s,” he didn’t acknowledge my mishap and I silently thanked him for that.

How could he be so nice? The question captured my brain in one of it whirlwinds. A breath fell from my lips as carried the thought on. I didn’t understand how I could have come upon someone as giving as Oscar. Look at me! I’m blind and a burden, yet here he is… fixing me breakfast and showing me where my fork is. He even went the extra limits and maneuvered the fork around my plate, showing me where everything was and telling me how many pieces there were. How long would he stay here and do this? Would he leave me? I forced the questions back down to the dark depths of my brain, how could I doubt him?

Self-pity trapped itself into my brain. How dare I think such a thing? How could I be so stupid? The thoughts came quickly, rushing into me and burring themselves deep into my insides. How dare I? It echoed around within, catching me off guard.

“What’s on your mind?” Oscar’s voice drifted into the depths of my hearing.

“Anything and everything,” I replied, feeling the lie within me. I held it there as a defense mechanism just in case he decided to pursue it.

“Oh.” He paused; I knew he was searching for something. I could feel it. “Care to get them off your mind? I don’t want them to get too heavy.” He attempted, asking me in the only way he knew how. Oscar was testing the waters with me. How far away from my world could he get me? Would I drown or would he save me like all the times before?

“I just…” The words stopped in my mouth. “I’m so…” This time I closed my eye lids and took in a deep breath. “I’m so confused,” I broke, allowing my mask to fall. Oscar got up from his seat and came around to me; I turned towards him.

“Evelyn, you can tell me anything…” He whispered, pulling a chair to sit on and grasping my knees once he was situated.

“But I shouldn’t be thinking these thoughts!” My façade completely burst, leaving me to cry. Panic swept through my body as the tears released and captivated me. I balled my hands into fists. “I-I…I’m so stupid! Look at me! I’m a fucking three year old!” I screamed, my nails breaking the skin on my hands. How could he put up with me? The words swirled around in my head, captivating each and every thought that attempted to pass. Negativity churned in the air around me.

“Evelyn!” Oscar tried to get through to me, but I was long gone. I don’t know where I went or how this sudden thought process was able to sweep me away so easily, but I was in my world of pessimistic thoughts. My cheeks were flushed and my hair was pressing against my skin. I’m pretty sure blood was coming out of the palms of my hands, but I kept going. Breathing became difficult as I dared to remember the good times; the times when I could see.

Suddenly, Oscar had me by both of my shoulders and jerked me forward, into him. Somehow, the warmth of his body brought me back. I clung to him; he was real. Through all of the emotions and everything else, there he was, holding me against him. My face was in the crook of his neck and my arms were gripping the back of his shirt. As the calm claimed me I breathed in his scent. How could I have doubted him?

“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry… I didn’t mean to-“

“Shhh… it’s okay, everything is going to be alright.” He murmured into my hair and, suddenly, I knew it would be… everything would, eventually, be okay.

A/N: I'm pretty sure this is a little sloppy and a bit rushed, but right now it's simply an idea. If you have any suggestions, or if you saw anything wrong PLEASE tell me! :D I don't know what I'm going to do with it just this moment, but ideas are definitely appreciated! Thanks for reading! R&R and I will do the same! :D