Unlike last time

once again I watch

as the blood drips down

once again I hear

the blade hit the ground

as always I pray

that this will be the last time

but like every other

this won’t be

as always I scream

for you to help me

but like last time

no noise escapes my throat

as always the cuts get deeper

these are definitely the deepest

like last time I thin I won’t make it

unlike the last time,

I’m damned sure of it

this time it’s different

I feel dizzy

I feel weak

this time

my vision fades to black

unlike every other time