A/N: This is just something I came up with in the top of my head.

I come home to a feeling of loneliness. There is no one in this desolate house. I walk up the stairs to see my reflection in the mirror. I see a strong young woman who is determined to stay strong no matter what, but in my green, dull eyes I see a little girl wanting to break free. The little girl in my eyes looks so frightened. She is scared, of what, I am not certain. She looks back at me with fear so great, it pains me.

The image suddenly switches and I see you looking down upon me. I see you looking at me with disgust and disappointment. In your eyes I always fail, I'm never good enough for you. I always have to do better. You shake your head at me and drop your eyes from my face to the floor.

Then, I see myself again. I'm not the same strong young woman, I am a failure to the world. I am a disgrace to those around me. I don't deserve to live in this world. I run into my room and fall onto the bed. I bury my face into my pillow. I want to cry but I can't. I feel no emotion at all. I just feel like shit.

You slowly walk into my room. You yell at me to get up and stop being a child. You say this to me, but I know that I am a child. Why can't I act like one, just this once? I want to be able to cry in your arms and for you to just sit there with me in your lap while you whisper soothing words, but make no effort to stop my tears. You let me express what I am feeling and for that I am thankful.

But no, I can't. I have to be an adult and I have to stand strong all the time. you look at me and you see what, a strong young woman standing tall with pride? No, you see a little girl, wilting to the ground with despair. You do nothing to stop it. You just stand there and let it happen. You storm out of the room and leave me to my nonexistent tears.

I look up to God and wonder why he has taken it upon himself to make me fail in your eyes. He doesn't answer me. He just sits there on a fluffy, white cloud in his wonderful little home in heaven. I laugh bitterly.

I just want to leave forever and never come back here. I never want to see you again, I want to forget you and everything else. I am tired of the pain, the failure, the despair. I want to feel happiness. I want to feel love and I want to love in return.

I want anything but this.

A/N: Okay, this is just me "talking" to my mother. I wrote this with the help of the song "Home" by Three Days Grace. I love that band and that song is really relatable, for me anyways. Well I hope you liked this and I hope you will review.

-Jenn-