So confused in this world

So confused in this love

As soon as I am ready to show how I feel

I am stopped

Pushed back

And told not to be unwise in my decision

Trying to make my love true

But dont push me back

And tell me I'm too young

Because

I know too well how I feel

But

I keep getting pushed back

Trying not to fall

In love

But there has to be some other way

To explain my reaction

To this being

Who

Has become someone who I believe I have feelings for

But

I stay back

Trying not to be caught in a trap

of something that was not two sided

and just a game I have been played

which i lost

but

the optimistic side of me

yearns

as I step forward

I try to reason with love

I say to not let me fall

but to be strong

know what I want

get what I need

so love can be a seed

that grows into something beautiful

and with this person I can be free

and happy as I want

and not be stuck as a person

in the first impression

but as a person

as the now and forever